So I’ve reached the end of the business week doing my stint as the newly appointed fertility blogger. I’m thinking about where I was emotionally on Monday as opposed to my emotions today. The first post made my nerves exposed, I was jittery with anticipation. As the days went on the blog brought new ideas into my head and little by little a sense of ability as a writer. It has lead me to remember special creative times with my Nana and my sister. It has lead me to learn about the history of May Day, fertility goddesses and modern-day myths. All of this in just 4 short days, with the internet and my keyboard.
I was thinking today about how many things have changed for me in the past four years after dealing with my infertility. I never could have guessed that out of those experiences would come an opportunity like this. I didn’t even know what a blog was, let alone one devoted to adoption and fertility. During the heartbreak and unknowns, there didn’t seem to be an end, or a reward for all of the suffering. To go back, I would never again choose to have the problems we endured. Yet if every cloud has it’s silver lining, this blog is a thread of sparkle in my black cloud of infertility. As time goes on, the darkness lightens bit by bit. Looking back is not as scary anymore. And it really isn’t as scary as being in the thick of it.
Thanks for reading, and here’s to learning, remembering and creative times as a community. I’m looking forward to the writing and I’m excited to see all of the directions this will take us. Just from this 4 day sample, it should be unique. Who knows where we can go with this!
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